love from vescent

Peugeot

I met him in high school Chemistry class. When I remembered this today, I laughed out loud. Top down, driving up Laurel Canyon in the evening commute traffic. My mind, my memories were elsewhere.

In the peugeot. His peugeot. 

Savoring our first kiss. He was driving. I believe I was sitting on his lap. Eyes closed, we "changed" at least 3 lanes. It's amazing we didn't crash. That first kiss. Such anticipation. Sweet fulfillment. 

I loved his car. It was a peugeot. Yeah, yeah, I know all the negative car comments about peugeots. I still loved it. I still love them.

I remember the fields out by the airport. Once his old riding team passed his car pulled over to the side. I don't know if he was embarrassed or proud. 

For a moment I wonder what he's like now, what he's doing. But really, I don't want to know. I want to remember him at 17. I want to remember that field at dusk. Our first kiss. The Cure in his basement. His haircut. The Jane's Addiction cassette tape.

He was fine. So so fine. What was my problem? I'm the one that fucked it up. What can you expect from a 16 year old girl?

Why this memory now? A few weeks ago, a red Peugeot was parked in the driveway of a house down the street. I didn't remember this then. But today. Tonight. As I drove into the valley, I savored the memories.

I'll never forget that field at dusk, with him, in his peugeot.

Poem

My Dad sent me this poem he wrote. I defintely got my love of philosophy from him.

Known

I was not at the beginning,
I will not be at the end.
There was a beginning,
There will be an end.
I know about the beginning
I know about the end.

I am aware of cosmic time.
Improbability is joy.
Understanding is happiness.
My life, part of infinity.
Meaningless . . . . ?
Not to me!

My favorite line in the poem is "Improbability is joy." 

Love and Shifting Awareness

 Most of last year was a practice of returning to the Path with Heart. This is a concept I learned while practicing the Art of Perception, which gives the freedom to consciously perceive the world. To identify, understand and break through societically structures, the beliefs forced on us. To consciously choose what beliefs and structures from which you perceive and live in this world. I've been practicing this since 1999 or 2000. My own history with this practice is the story for another day, for now, I have returned. 

And the return is so sweet. Beautiful. Full of love. An even deeper connection with the path with heart. I have no question I am exactly where I am supposed to be. Doing exactly what I am supposed to do/want to do/dream of doing.

I would like to invite you to join me to deepening your connection of/with love in order to shift your consciousness and change your life INSTANTLY!

Yes, you can change your life, your beliefs, any habit, in one moment. An eternal moment. 

Please join me in the practice below, by two of the most adept (and my personal favorite) teachers of Freedom, Aerin and Miles. Crossposted from their site, Being Energy.

 

How Do You Love?

Dear Being Energy Community: 

How do you Love? Where in your body do you find the feeling of Love?

We asked these questions and more in our first class of the new Path with Heart Series: “The Art of Moving the Assemblage Point: Jumping Grooves” as part of our exploration to assemble new perceptions and awareness.

Seers of ancient Mexico recognized that our ability to perceive the physical and the abstract occurs through a center of cohesion, which they called “the assemblage point.” They understood that we interpret the world through thought-feeling patterns that govern our behaviors and color our perceptions.

When the assemblage point shifts, we are able to transcend our usual states of consciousness to experience new levels of awareness. “Jumping grooves” is the shifting to new positions of the assemblage point. How we shift, by assembling our perception of ourselves and the world is an art that can be learned.

Don Juan told Carlos Castaneda one day, while hiking in the Sonoran desert that, “…we (human beings) are an awareness encased in our hearts”. LOVE or AFFECTION, as Carlos Castaneda preferred to call it, is a powerful unifying force that acts to bind our awareness, and it influences our physical, emotional and cognitive development. It is a guiding force that causes us to act intelligently, from confidence and it is one of the most powerful tools for moving the assemblage point.

The feeling of love, belonging, compassion, understanding, affection, fondness, warmth, care, friendship, tenderness, all of the above, can shift the assemblage point, can help us transcend fears, resentment, and pain.

Take action:
We continue in the upcoming classes to individually explore and to look in depth at the question, “HOW DO I LOVE?” It becomes a way that we can track how this force manifests in ourselves, in our day-to-day actions.

Specifically:

• Find three actions that you will do daily, this week that will become an expression, a manifestation of LOVE
• Notice how the consistent practice of these three actions will not only move your assemblage point, but also sustain that position of unconditional LOVE.

Join me in this practice of focused awareness of love.

Heather's Coconut Chocolate Chip Cookies

I adapted the traditional Chocolate Chip Cookie Recipe for my brother Jody, who was visiting from Hawaii. It came out great!

• 1 cup Coconut Oil
• 1/2 cup Cane Sugar 
• 1/2 cup Turbino Sugar
• scant 3/4 cup unrefined brown sugar
• splash 1/2 and 1/2
• splash boiling water
• splash Vanilla (no Beaver taint) 
• 2 eggs
• 1 tsp salt
• 1 tsp baking soda
• 2 1/2+ cup flour
• Chocolate Chips
• Hand chopped chocolate bars (dark chocolate, milk chocolate - whatever you like)
• Chopped Walnuts
• Unsweetened Coconut Flakes
• Dried Cherries

Preheat oven to 350.

Measure out the coconut oil and mix in a mixer. Add the sugars and beat very well. After several minutes add the 1/2 and 1/2 (I use this for my coffee, so I just used a coffee splash, you could probably use coconut cream, coconut milk, soy, almond or regular milk) and blend. Then add the splash of boiling water and mix well. The boiling water should slightly dissolve the sugar crystals and coconut oil. Add the vanilla, salt and baking soda and beat very well. Then add the eggs and beat for 2-3-4 minutes. You really want to get everything mixed together here, because you don't want to mix as much when you add the flour. Then add the 2 1/2 cups flour - mixing as little/lightly as you can get away with. I usually hand mix in the final 1/2 cup.

Then add the chocolate chips, nuts and all the other goodies that you want.

Refrigerate the dough for 15-30 minutes (go do something). 

Then bake for 9 minutes - leave on the cookie sheet outside the oven for another 2 minutes for not so crispy cookies. Bake for 12 minutes - 2 min on cookie sheet outside the oven.

Let cool and then take them in your mouth!

 

The Depeche

I love Depeche Mode. And the Cure. And Morrisey... among lots of other alt 90s music. So this mix of Depeche and The Cure is sooooo beautiful. Thanks for my friend Marco Bevolo.

It's so good!