It's been a long few days at the computer. In the past 6 days, I have written over 8000 words in 6 documents. I've gone full academic mode. I'm back in full writer mode too.
It's comforting to be back in these modes. I love digging into my material. Complexity and Wildcards excite my brain unlike many other topics. I had forgotten how much the topic resonates with me. Writing helps me process the world and my perceptions of it. This blog is more of a conversation with myself that I have in an open space for you to observe.
But back to the topic at hand tonight. Loving a challenge.
So I had to write 6 papers. I'm always up for a challenge, so in a way, I was seeing if I could actually rise to this challenge. It wasn't a question of whether it was possible or not - it was whether I could do it. And not just, could I do it - but could I do it on my terms: living the lifestyle I wanted to live. I refused to be stressed by the situation, pull all nighters or change my plans to finish putting the dome together. I listened to my body and slept when I was tired, ate when I was hungry and spent time with the dog.
And I did it. Don't get me wrong, it was hard. But writing is something I love. Once I get started, I can dig into the material. I can get going.
Another thing that was magical about the whole situation. The timing was actually perfect. Things crystallized perfectly the day before my 5000 word day. I had been reviewing my documents for weeks, thinking about the topics, what I was planning to write, simmering it on the back burner. The day before I sat down to write - all the answer came. When I sat down to write - I actually wrote. It wasn't forcing something out that wasn't ready.
That's always a hard thing to experience. Knowing things happen in their own perfect time - especially when you feel you're waiting till the absolute minute to get er done.
I came out of this writing sprint challenge - along with the intention to write about things I love everyday - with my writing skills in top shape. I have an inspirational daily writing practice that does it's job. And in a few weeks, I was able knock what I felt was an impossible task out in a few days.
Challenges - you're awesome. I love having you in my life. I love *creating* you so that I can not become complacent. But challenges, we've got a new rule to playing now - I'm going to approach you on my terms - rising to you as I want to meet you. OK? Let's take a break from hanging out for now, cause I got your message. Until the next quest! xxx -Heather
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