I love the kinks. especially their album, The Village Green Preservation Society. The song walter just played with these words,
"People can change, but memories of people remain the same."
It's an interesting reminder as I pack and find photos and notes and etc. How precious are these things? These memories I have. The memories people have of me.
I want to erase every moment, every memory someone has of me. Is this an impossible task? I do not care to be memorable. I am memorable. But I do not want to be remembered. And someday, even all the memories of me will be dust. Will be assimilated back into the void. The dark sea of awareness.
I remember in 6th or 7th grade History class. We learned about Latin America and Simon Bolivar. I remember the quote from him on his deathbed, "I have plowed the sea." I hated that quote as a child and adolescent and young adult. It's a quote that has settled in my mind along with, "Everything happens for a reason, sometimes that reason is yet unknown to man and the universe" and "That which doesn't kill you only makes you stronger".
However, over the past few years, I have become very affectionate about the Bolivar quote. I plan to achieve and do and be much in my life. And I have in the short time I have so far lived. At the same time, I want to leave no trace. I want to release, erase, every memory I have ever had, and anyone has ever had of me.
When I leave this world, I want to have plowed the sea and leave not even a wake.