Rant.

More has happened in the past 4 days than all of December. 2007 has gone off like a pack of machine guns that I want to smash into the ground, or aim at each other. I really just feel like ranting, but how can you do that when the people you want to rant about probably read your blog? When and where can you be free and personal? That's the problem with blogging as memory, therapy and processing. I can't always be free. Or I could be free with repercussions. It wouldn't be the first time a shitstorm blew up here. And it's one of the main reasons I don't blog about work.

O Universe. For 2007 can I work with super smart on the ball intelligent people who respond in a timely manner are respectful and inclusive? People who bring out the best in me. People I learn new things from while using my best skills? People I can be happy and proud of working for and pimping and promoting? People who push me and support me and don't act like frat boy assholes? (opps, did I write that?)

I know I can take this "opportunity" to learn how to work with difficult people (or try on being difficult and offended in return), but frankly I am tired of playing games. I'm tired of focusing on the learning or practicing. I am an expert in so many things. Just to prove it, I kicked ass all last year. I don't want to be micromanaged on every step. I don't want an email message to be edited 6 times. I want to GSD (get shit done). I don't want to contribute to the bottom line, I want to contribute to the mutual arising.

I had a conversation with someone last year. He wanted to get to the top of the pyramid (although you could say he was already sitting on the top of it) so he could make it bigger. I said, I wasn't interested in getting to the top of the pyramid. I was more interested in raising the pyramid. That seems a much more worth challenge. You can use and scam and lie and fuck everyone to get to the top. But it takes a different strategy to move it from the bottom. And that starts with impeccable direction from the top.

So what to do when there is some dude sitting on the top of the pyramid holding it down? Maybe time to water the plum tree....

Oh, and DJ John is good mashup music to rant out too! Woohoo!

Comments

[Tommie]

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if ur spirit like adventur like mine .... u will enjoy it ... kissas ... and sossy for any ..
bye bye

[Carren]

Its always good therapy to have a rant every now and again! Hope you feel better