The Future is not the past

This weekend I am moving most of my stuff out of the future - my house over in Mt Washington. I haven't really lived there since January due to events in both my and others lives. I've take most of the burden of maintaining the house absently and it definitely took a toll on me. That mixed with a difficult situation with my partner has made the future a serious hassle.

When I started dating the boyfriend, one of the first things he said to me was something about "putting the future behind us" and quipping he would steal me from the future. I laughed with that, thinking how nice that would be, but how unlikely it was. I was strongly entrenched in the future and loved my life and house there.

But all that changed. The last positive conversation I had with my roommate was on her birthday - the day I was to "temporarily" move out, which in retrospect I realize was the beginning of the end of the future inhabitation. Catastrophic events winded me in and out of the future like a bad time machine. I was a kite whipped and battered around in a tornado. I was getting whiplash, what was I to do? I cut the string and blended with the tornado - eventually landing in Neverneverland far away from the future.

For a time, I would still travel back to the future. Like the travelers in Primer, the journey was difficult both physically and mentally. I'd return and remember all the good times, the fun and the things I loved. And then something would reach out and nip me. Harsh words, falling sheet rock, different objectives, lives and possibilities. It reminded me this was not my home. The future of my past was not the future of my present.

Which leads to the current situation. Roommate has totally moved out, and the future is for rent. Although I've disengaged from the day to day reality, the future is not the past. But where the future merges with the present is still unknown.

Comments

[pinky the first]

hey, you should post up a nice ad somewhere, with pix and price and everything, so I can tell all my friends (and certain family who I think should move to the future).