I played around with theatre, arts and performance in my time. Most people who know me expect me to be the actress type, wanting to be out on the stage in front of everyone getting a standing ovation. This is not so in reality.
In my theatre days, I was almost exclusively behind the scenes. I'd find, create and set up props, backdrops, costumes, make-up. I'd wear black and change the sets as the performers would run off the stage for a frantic costume change. I'd stay behind after the show was over cleaning up, prepping for the next night. Putting things in order, while most were out celebrating or partying or something. But then everyone would be gone. The stage would be in order and I'd stand in the wings. Looking out on the set. I'd walk out and look at row upon empty row. In awe at the open empty space. I never pretended I was acting or in the performance. If I really wanted to perform, I would have. (And I did a few times when I wanted to.) I preferred the silent set. Devoid of motion. Static. And yet, all the possibilities.
But they weren't my possibilities. Or were they, as soon as I came out from watching in the wings? Maybe that's what the second part of kicking ass in 2006 is all about. Maybe it's time to stop hiding in the wings. Time to stop setting up the scenes. Time to stop practicing my kicks. And time to start showing them off. 10 days to curtain rise.
This was 14 days ago. Has the curtain risen yet?
Posted by: Lars | July 03, 2006 at 11:28 PM