I'm amped. Strange after being in a car for 9+ hours. I just got back from 2 1/2 days in the Mojave high desert. That short period of time stretched out to 6+ days of experiences.
Snippets
- grey rodents running across the night two lane road while Jim Morrison rattles his Indian bells and chants
- pockets of sitting places: a bridge, Be Aware; a single drop dripping over and over in perfect time; a rock balanced in the center of a trickling stream; roses in full bloom with desert quail and young scurrying; cacti in bloom with lavender a few feet away.
- goose bumpy flesh, mine, swimming under the stars, practicing with my colleagues on deep purple carpet
- enveloped by a lush green carpet. I have never experienced grass so lush - and in the desert! It was a soft bed. I slept, warm in the morning air.
- painted rocks, placing tender parts on hard rocks, climbing rocks for a vantage view, coyotes voices, the setting sun and infinity.
- connections, remembering dreams, squeaking noises at night, the wind drying the water from my skin
- leaving the habit behind, not the person inflicted or inciting the habit
- affection for those many many people I love. I don't even know if some of them know it.
everything happening according to THE PLAN. (What plan is this Heather, oh it's the unfolding bud plan.)
"This is a fine pace."
Yes, this is a fine pace. The wind welcomed me back to San Francisco with a full body blast that was a kick in the ass... "what are you doing back here??? get down there. you are not supposed to be HERE!" I petition for a few weeks. A few weeks is all to pack my belonging. To start the final paperwork.
This is a fine pace.
The time for vacillating is over. The time for making decisions is over. The time for action has begun. Starting today - Monday. But let's see... first I should get some sleep.
This is a fine pace.
I feel it very strongly. The next time I return to San Francisco, I will be a visitor. This was the last coming home to this city. And to this area.
Good night sweet lady. Good night.
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