This is my life

It's day 25 of the quarantine, self-isolation. It's a rainy night in the Mojave. It snowed at Key's View a few days ago. Have I mentioned it's April. This time last year I was running the swamp cooler. We've barely cracked 80 degrees for more than a few days so far this year. 

I'm sitting here on my couch, my two dogs on either side, snoring, farting. I've got some downtempo hotel techno, reminiscent of the Blue Bar days back at the Future. It's 2020. We've got climate change, a global pandemic that's shut down the economy. Through my own decisions, that were sometimes not mine, I've found my home in the Mojave desert, a remote location in California. This is where I am weathering this storm. This is where I write my story. Live my life.

Today feels like some kind of milestone. Maybe it's the dogs getting along better and better. Maybe it's that I finally took some time to do my own writing today. Maybe it's the third day of rainy weather. Maybe it's the Covid-19 numbers, rising, rising. Maybe it's the disconnect I feel, sitting here, alone, in my dome. 

I've lost sight of the future. All the possibility I saw, just a month ago, evaporated. I know the world, my life, will never be the same. But exactly how, that is what everyone wants to know. This certainty we all grasp for.

I sit here in my home. I feel the world spinning all around me, like the desert wind around my home, like the tornado power I have aligned myself with. I have to remind myself that I don't have to get caught up in it. That all I have to do, all I can do, is sit here, in the eye of the storm, and wait. Put out my hand.

And maybe that's where the disconnect comes from, knowing here in the safety of my home is the calm eye of the storm, and that at any moment, I could be in the tornado. 

But for now, I am at a safe distance, watching the storm from my vantage point. 

Comments

[Bede]

Hey there,

Just been reading your Deep Links blog. Keep it going.

I'm based in the Isle of Wight UK. Thankfully I live in a quiet coastal village to sit out this storm.

Just wondered where I can buy a copy of your book "A Comprehensive Guide to Self Sovereign Identity"

I've been getting up to speed with SSI/DLT Smart contracts etc over the last 5 yrs. I'm working through an idea relating to Social data sharing.

I'm intrigued to hear your view on where it will go, especially after Covid-19 and all the calls for Apps sharing data etc

Bede