This V day I am single yet again. But I'm not sad. Rather the opposite. I am full to bursting with love and possibilities. I am surrounded by music I love. My home and objects. Most wonderful friends! My beloved dog. In my beloved city - La Dona - she is always here. And, most of all, I love myself. Srsly, it's been a lot of work to become what I wanted to become. Of course, I dream of an amazing partner. But until he is revealed from the mist, I'm satisfied for the now.
I've learned a lot about love over the years. Here are two of the most important - archiving on the ole blog for posterity.
The biggest thing I wish I had learned earlier in my life is that you can love someone, and that doesn't mean you have to necessarily do anything or specific things because of it. Like be in a LTR relationship, or get married, or stay married or expect a relationship to last forfuckingever or expect the relationship to even stay the same.
Knowing that, would have made the endings, middles and beginnings of many relationships much easier. But I know it now and that makes the transition of my latest romantic relationship one of the gentlest. It makes it easier to forgive myself for the past. In the end, the love remains.
- Me, January 15, 2016
Instead of being sad I'm single this V day, I'm thinking about all the amazing men who've shared my life. That genius rasta-NY-Jew who threw down the sickest bass lines, the humble artist who sketched hundreds of 18 year old heather and still sends me bday wishes, the esoteric Iowa writer who brought me to the bay area, the old prospector who introduced me to the magic of the Mojave desert, the Stoic (outlasting them all), and the most recent romantic. Any one of these could be considered the affair of a lifetime or at least their own romance-adventure novel. I've been lucky, to know - and love - you all. Thank you partners of my past. We had some great adventures. I wish you all the love your heart can handle!
- Me, February 2016