I've felt like my life has recently been a play and replay of this scene.
Regardless of my evolution, enlightenment, self-awareness, following the path makes my heart raw. Well, if I'm doing it right, my heart is raw. It's a roundtrip from consciousness/awareness ("pure being") to shitty humanity/day to day drama.
But that's ok. Because that's what this life is. A game, a jungle gym, for flexing, building and using muscles, knowledge, information. I'll play my role. I'll provoke. I'll allow myself to be stabbed, show the vulnerable underbelly. (Sometimes I'm the one wielding the ax that cuts forever.) Because I gain valuable information with each "role" "experience". I chose to consciously create my life. I'm here, in these places, playing these roles for a reason - and that reason is partly mine, but also for others...
In the end, evolution. Opening possibilities. Choice. Be-ing.