Sometimes I think back to my golden ticket. The life I sacrificed to have, to be the person I am today. I do not look back at that possibility wishing I could return to it. Or to relive it. I knew what I was doing when I cashed it in, took my golden ticket and got on this path. I knew in the future the full implications of the golden ticket would be revealed. In the present unfolding my golden ticket becomes stronger and the sacrifice to create the golden ticket more powerful.
Sometimes I get caught though. I'm human. I forget about the bigger picture, my bigger goals, my dreams I dare not tell anyone. The secret thoughts, solutions I remind myself in cypher through my writing, my metaphors often forgotten, lost to myself, until a specific moment. I get caught in the ebb and flow of this world. And then I remember my golden ticket: gold flecked with dreams of a lifetime and love forever.
When I remember it I am filled with joy and lightness. The radiance has not dampened. It reminds me that each day matters more than the previous and with this time, it's my duty, my responsibility to be the best I can and make the best that I think best.