I'm tired of people who can't keep their word. People who say they will behave under certain circumstances and then the circumstance occurs and they behave like jerks. They don't hold up in their self-manifested life. They can't deal with the situation they created, nor are they necessarily honest enough to admit that they can't deal with it. Rare, but it does show up, is the person who is aware that they are reacting in a way that is surprising to them self. I appreciate that level of self-observation and awareness. But more often is the case that you're dealing with someone who is completely unaware that they are reacting/behaving in a way that is different from what they communicated to you.
Or what they committed to you.
Which brings another topic which is sore of late. Commitment. Promises. Keeping your word. Situations change. Contracts must be renegotiated. Needs and wants change. So why should I be surprised when I'm no longer the confidant? When I know exactly which position I'm in, because I've experienced the other side of it. When I know the reasons you're flaking out, and what you truly mean by your commitment. And I remember all the promises you ever made me, and how you broke them all. Why should this promise, this commitment be any different.
E tu Brutus?
Heather, it's a real drag when you're dealing with someone who carries around such a lack of self awareness.
I can only hope that you were disappointed when wearing that costume, so that you could leave a boot print on that poor jerk's face.
You know, I think it may not be very rare for a person to be betraying a commitment they've made without being aware of it. People have such an ability to disappoint.
But! You have such an ability to enact revenge. Let the Internets know if you want to slash some tires, we're still awake.
Anyhow, I dig your blog. I've commented before, specifically about the CIA in North Hollywood, and I just set up my own site, like it's 1996 and this is what the kids are doing. I think it will link, but who knows.
Posted by: DC Johnny | October 20, 2005 at 11:44 PM
You know what? I can't figure out the link. But here's my site. I'd better get some sleep before I embarass myself in front of my computer.
Posted by: Jon | October 20, 2005 at 11:48 PM
From my view here on the outside, down the street and around the corner what you're venting is a bit abstract, but I get that someone (or perhaps plural) has chapped your hide and I can only offer the following easier-said-than-done cliche: don't get dragged down by another's bullshit.
Posted by: Will Campbell | October 21, 2005 at 07:00 AM
The funny thing is, this post is multi-faceted about at least 3 different people/situations. And I could probably add myself to the list. I certainly am not aware 100% of the time, even though I'd like to think so. But if I'm aware that I'm not aware, what does that make me? (Syntactic word play aside.)
Posted by: heathervescent | October 21, 2005 at 08:44 AM