A few weeks ago when I was carpooling with Erika she mentioned her view of the ego. My understanding of what she said is that the ego serves only yourself. It gives you the support to do the things you want to do when anyone else (and the world) is telling you otherwise. It gives you internal strength and confidence to what YOU personally want. It's not negative at all. The ego is for your eyes only.
It was interesting to hear and think about. And it's been on my mind ever since. It's true, the ego does support yourself. When you are not thinking about anyone else and your ego expands to be your all encompassing view, the ego gets a negative connotation, it's no longer self-serving, it's expecting to be served. Thinking about this this way, made me realize how much negativity I have fixated on "the ego" and my ego and trying to become egoless or egopowerless. This is because when the ego expresses itself to others others have no interest in it. This frustrates ego and people act or react differently to this.
There is such a sense of freshness and release to have respect for my ego. To think about its positive position. To know that it can live and direct my life, without having to be a center of attention to others, or even be known to others. That gives me internal strength, fire, drive and confidence. Second guessing is the validation of my ego. This is an oxy-moron and something I struggle to overcome. Validation does nothing for the ego except usurp its power. I'm done with that.
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